The road of life

I have a playlist on my iTunes called "Reflection Mix." It is a hodge podge of songs encompassing several genres of music. Most of the tunes are "mellow" in character. It is my playlist for the times when I simply want to "think"

The soothing jazz/blues guitar of David Gilmour is taking me to another place tonight.

The news came tonight that my mother lost the local election she was running in. She will be leaving her job of 16 years. She is devastated to leave it yet I know she maintains a spark of optimism. She has always relied on a strong belief that "Things are meant to happen." She has often told me "God never closes one door without opening another."

I do not care to call myself A Christian. Yet every part of me wants to believe what she says. I wish I had the ability to gracefully accept that which I cannot comprehend. I have seen the comfort it can bring.

I believe that life comes together as a tapestry of events woven together by all the little choices we make everyday. I think that man is mostly in control of his own destiny. We choose which path to take, yet every path is filled with chance, luck, and circumstance. It is these things that make life exciting.

I hope my mom can come to embrace the change. Lately I have been contemplating the changes I must make. In January I will go back to school. I know I have bickered about it before but my emotions have begun to slowly change lately. I'm beginning to be excited about it. I miss the mental stimulation of school. Plus, even as a person who is slow to accept change, I still know it is necessary. I remind myself of when I switched employment a year and half ago. It was scared to make the change, and it brought many challenges. Yet I now have a job that I like much better.

It is easy to find reasons to justify our situations, However hindsight is always 20/20. Perhaps the best thing we can do is just accept the choices we make and enjoy the ride on the road of life.

I think this line from Led Zeppelin's Stairway to Heaven describes my feelings better than I can

"Yes there are two paths you can go by
but in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on"